Friday, December 30, 2011
much better
pointed out $5/lb....Ok that's more sane then the price i saw on some
random food website where they wanted $109/lb for the stupid friendship
farmer cheese.
Fwd: bastardized orange chicken
that the coconut milk had sugar in it. Next time i'll make my own
coconut milk but, this works for now.
1 13 oz can of unsweetened coconut mlk
4 bags california mixed vedgitables
2 tbsp orange zest
2.5lbs boneless chicken thighs
2lbs mushrooms
1 small onion
1/4th cup honey
cook the 4 bags of vedgitable mix for a good hour on medium. This
ensures they're well cooked.
cook the chicken thighs in coconut oil for a good 45 mins on low
slice the mushrooms
chop the onion fine but not too fine (note) you should use 2 onions my
husband and i didn't think there was enough onion flavor in it)
when chicken is done, take it out of the pan and put it on paper towels
to drain off the extra oil.
when vegitables are well cooked slowly feed them into the food processor
till they are completely pureyed there should be no lumps in them if you
can help it.
fry the onions and mushrooms in a little olive oil till they are very
well done.
add the coconut milk and orange zest to the mix in the food processor
and let it blend for several minutes
chop the chicken into small bites
pour chicken mushrooms and onions, and mix into a large pot and set to
simmer
add the quarter cup of honey and let simmer for about half an hour
stirring ocationally.
I say unsweetened coconut milk. We had the missfortune that sweeteened
was all wallmart had. Amazon has unsweetened organic coconutmilk by the
case. I'll probably purchase a case of this next month to use with cooking.
We found almond milk today which i'm definitly excited about. I've been
looking for a good replacement to cows milk and now i have one that food
stamps will pay for. Thank god. They wont pay for almond flour which i
paid $65 for 10lbs....not pleased there but what can i do. Food stamps
certainly wont pay for certain bulk items like nuts and almond flour. I
wish they would.
Chris and i have been trying to save, but i feel like we start saving
or get to the point where we might be able to save and we really can't.
I figured we'd save about 100 or so this month, but it's turned around
and gone right back into the endless pit that is my health. Oh this may
not be quite so bad as it could be. Chris will eat the breads and things
that i make with the almond flour and nuts I'm just frustrated by the
fact that i can go out and buy chocolate or cookies or chips on food
stamps, but i can't buy things like bulk nuts of nut flours that i need
to survive.
Oh well i'm done ranting now.
My dad and chris are gonna dot he guy thing for newyears, my mom and i
may watch tv but it's more likely that i'll read or watch tv all night
till i pass out.
Going to make a banana cake tomorrow. Going to double the batch this
time though because i want to hopefully have it last longer then 3
days....I can't help it though i love the stuff lol and it's nice to be
eating bananas again.
I've got the makings for an scd pumpkin pie to. The pumpkin has sugar in
it to, blah but i'm going to go to amazon and see if i can find some
organic unsweetened pumpkin.
oh i forgot
pathetic state. We looked all over wallmart with no luck. I need a new
cheese cake recipe that's scd legal so that i can make me a cheese cake.
I've still not decided quite what i'm going to feast on for newyears
besides the orange chicken. Banana cake most likely because it needs to
be made soon. I can't wait for pumpkin pie though. that's going to be
tastey.
Thursday, December 29, 2011
gearing up to add new foods to my diet
Mostly pureyed vegitables and finaly chopped meat Nothing wrong with
that diet i guess but i'm definitly looking forward to breads muffins
and things of that nature. I ordered 10 lbs of almond flour today. I
guess we'll wait and see how it comes out but i'm excited to have
something new.
We're gearing up for newyears. Chris and i are going out on a date
tomorrow to go shopping for things that we will want for newyears. I'll
get some bananas hopefully a recipe for a cheese cake or something along
those lines. I'll also get the peanutbutter for the biscuits i'll make
once we get the flour.
Oh i got a recipe for a pumpkin pie maybe i'll feast on pumpkin for
newyears.
Monday, December 26, 2011
the scd diet and semi-success in making my stomach behave.
(specific carbohidrate diet) The diet itself isn't terrible, but i've
had a lot of trouble getting used to pureyed food. The 2 times i made my
large batch of chicken soup i pureyed everything including the
chicken.....Blek, terrible. The pureyed chicken made me gag horribley.
Next time i make the soup i'll pass on pureying the chicken and just cut
it fine.
Chris suggested i try pureying a brocoli carrot coliflower mix and add
my favorite cheeses and skip pureying the meat. This creation came out
perfectly. Though, next time i wont microwave the vegitables I'll cook
them the right way.
I'm learning slowly to adapt to the diet. I'm allowed to use honey to
sweeten things, so i have a bit of fun with that. I still miss things
like chocolate or my bbq wheet thins but i'll live to. Since stufflike
that makes me deadly sick it's sure as hell not worth it.
I managed to make it through one of my flareups that decided to show
itself on christmas day. The abdominal/spinal pain kicked in first and i
thought the nausia would follow, but i took a phennergan and some ativan
and that settled things well enough. I was able to eat my version of
christmas dinner later so it worked out well enough.
Chris and i are doing well. Our 6 month aniversery was the 4th of this
month. and we've had our fare share of fun.
We've talked a lot about going to mcguires for dinner but there's not
really a point now. I can't eat 95% of what they serve because it's
probably got ingredience that will make me sick. Hmm wonder what we
should do for our 1 year aniversery. Red lobster mayb? I dont think
shrimp and lobster would end up making me sick if i make my choices right.
Scd has taught me quite a bit about cooking this past month. I've made
chicken stock, duck stock, ham stock to though that had too much salt to
be drinkable.....could have used it in cooking though. Then last week i
made my first banana cake. For those of you who are interested here's
the recipe.
5 large eggs
5 bananas
a teaspoon vanilla (optional)
a quarter cup honey (optional)
nutmeg
cynamin
ginger
cloves
The spices are optional but they spice it up more and make it more
desert like. The first time i made this i included the honey and vanilla
and spices. It came out incredible but too sweet.
When i made it for christmas i forgot everything accept the eggs and
bananas. It came out fine that way to, but i much prefer it with the
spices and vnilla so next time that's how i'll make it but i won't
include the honey......too sweet.
I have other scd recipes i still want to try. there's one for a cheese
cake that looks pretty good. I'd like to find a pumpkin pie type recipe
though still.
Oh, fyi, when you make that banana cake make sure the pan is well oiled
but pour out any excess oil or it will be hard to turn the thing out to
cool later.
Friday, December 16, 2011
got to love windows
windows is managed.....where to start?
I've been in and out of the hospital a couple times since i last wrote,
but there's not much to really say. It tends to be round and round of
the same thing over and over again and we're not really getting
anywhere. There's no pattern to link my hospital stays to where we can
actually improve on things. Least that's how it looks to me and it's
frustrating.
They suggested maybe getting a medical port put in my arm to help so
that they wont have to find more and more places to stick me. At this
point dispite the risks i dont think i really have a choice. they're
sticking needles between my knuckles to find vains and i'll tell you
it's not a pleasant experience.
I started the SCD diet a couple weeks ago. It seems to help a bit, but
it's very hard to follow if you land in the hospital. I guess we'll see
how well it works over the next several weeks.
I switched back to windows a couple weeks ago and while i hate windows
I'll have to admit that it's nice to have things that generally just do
what they're told to with no real setup. The linux desktop just isn't
what i'd call useable. Things like the screen reader and synth tend to
randomly go boom which means your computer doesn't talk. There's more
things like that, but over all i'd almost rather use this for a desktop.
Christmas is getting closer, and it tends to make me reflect back on the
year. This year was particularly hard in a lot of ways. the constant
hospital stays, surgery, things like that. Dispite the dificulties
though, I have chris, and that's what i enjoy the most. We have so much
fun together, and we always have things we can do with eachother to keep
things exciting:)
Thursday, October 13, 2011
devils claw tea
I'm nausia free for the first time in probably a week. I'm guessing it's
the tea. It's said that the tea is very good for the stomach and helps
improve digestion. We'll see how long this keeps up, but hopefully i'll
stay this way. The thought of eating real food again is kind of nice.
I had some serial this morning, and so far so good. Going to make
chicken for dinner and have it with something light.
My parents come back from texas saturday. Their car broke down while
they were inbetween my brother's house and my aunt and uncle's house.
Let's pray that they don't have to pay a small fortune for a new car.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
android/iphone, my thoughts
don't like the debate. I have several reasons why i like the idea of
android. It's open source, theentry to get into development isn't
horrible, or so my husband says. Iphone on the other hand i gather you
have to pay apple some fee or what ever to even get materials to develop
with. I don't know the full story there, just that i don't like the "pay
to play" idea so to speak.
Here's the problem with android though. Accessibility wise, it's a mess.
I feel a lot like they're just tacking on accessibility to android. With
the iphone, I just had to get my mom to turn on a setting, and there it
is, voiceover works and the whole thing talks out of the box. Most of
the apps are at least somewhat accessible also because apple ensures
that accessibility is at least somewhat considered. Ok, tunein radio is
missing labels on a few buttons as are other apps.
Android is another basket of trouble all together though.You have to
download then enable all the required things to make it accessible.
There's a nice pretty little android bug though which essentially makes
it so that people have to at least have a d-pad (directional pad) in
order to use android because they don't make the touch screen accessible
to the blind user. The touch screen is only accessible within apps
themselves. I strongly, strongly dislike this.
Iphone has a disadvantage because it requires itunes. The linux tools to
manipulate it are buggy and may not even compile in some cases. So if i
want to update my iphone now that i'm using it again, I have to install
windows. Ok i'll do it but blah. i hate windows.
Android, well i just mount my phone as a harddrive and poof i can upload
to it and so on. That's a plus.
Another downside to android is what the manufacturers do to the
operating system. Take HTC. They're probably one of the biggest culprets
of this. They remove stuff that makes the OS accessible, they break
things, then they add their home screen and other misc shit that totally
breaks accessibility. Samsung is another bad one.....I say this, and i
have a samsung phone. Samsung has been trying to get rid of their
galaxyS phones in favor of newer ones for a while now. I love my epic
4g. As far as accessible phones go, if you got rid of touchwiz and
replaced the inaccessible apps with ones that work, it makes a great
phone. But apparrently it's not good enough for samsung, they now have
the epic 4g touch out.....Touch? hah all that means is that it's yet
another touchscreen phone that a blind person can't use because google
won't make it accessible. Or rather they make it accessible by taking on
software rather then making it accessible from the ground up.
Ok i'll stop complaining now. What i like about android is the fact that
things can update themselves. That's actually nice. I've yet to see an
iphone do that, though i've heard that when IOS5 comes out you won't
need itunes just to update the operating system.
Pricing wise, android phones are obviously cheaper. apple as usual is
overpriced.
So there's my take on the old iphone/android debate.
Which do i prefer? Let's just say i've swung back to iphone for
accessibility. It fits my purposes even if it doesn't currently have
cell service.
Saturday, October 8, 2011
frustrated by the government and tse
the other day basically stating that a train ride home is too far to
take a dog on, and they'd rather not put me on the home training list if
they can help it. They would rather me get my florida id etc etc etc. I
think they've forgotten though that getting my birth cerficate is no
easy matter. On the other hand, i did find out that the court order is
attached to my adoption papers, so that's 1 step down and a lot to go.
The letter from tse basically ammounts to "no dog for you unless you get
your papers in order" I'm not so sure i like that. I mean, what are they
going to do when more and more people like me want to get dogs. Just
tell them no out of habit because they dont have vallid id and birth
certificates? It's not really fare. It's not like it's my fault that I
can't get a vallid id. It's not my fault the stupid government didn't do
their end of the work and file my adoption with the state of texas.
Oh well. At this point i question the advisibility of getting a dog
anyway. The whole chronic pancreatitus thing has things all annoying
right now anyway.....Hell, I can't even eat normal food these days.
Monday, October 3, 2011
the useability of facebook
hate in others. Yes i know, the majority of people who read this are on
my facebook page..... From a blind person's perspective though using it
with firefox and orca presents a whole ton of problems. In internet
explorer it was easier but the website itself is bogged down with menue
after menue, javascript, and god only knows what else.
The facebook mobile site isn't so bad, that's generally what i use. How
ever for a blind person i have a hate/love relationship for facebook. I
never did get to like the article i was trying to like from another
website which is what started this rant.
When i clicked on the like thing to like the article i got presented
with several pages of people i "should" be friends with. I gave up half
way through. It wasn't worth the effort of trying to figure out what
happened to my article, where was the text i was supposed to do what
ever with. Either way, totally bad experience i will never repeat. Maybe
it's time to sign up for twitter.....That can't possibley be as bad as
facebook. Or can it? My husband said twitter requires some stupid
captcha thing to sign up for it.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
dog update
biggest problem has been figuring out how to get me to/from seeing eye.
I can't fly so that's out unless a miracle happens. I asked pauline
about the potential of taking the train. She said that taking the train
there wouldn't be a problem but coming home may be a problem but she'd
talk to someone in training and then we'd go from there. They are
basically worried about a long trip home with a dog.
If they say no to my taking the train home with the dog then i suspect
i'll be waiting a year for home training.
This frustrates me. It shouldn't be this dificult just to go from one
end of the country to another. In other countries you can fly around x
country just by boarding a plane. You don't have to give your life blood
just to get an id card to fly, and rumor has it that in canada you can
fly with out an id etc as well. Oh well, what can be done about it. Not
much it seems.
alternative medicine
hospital once or twice. On the plus side, there's a chance that my
doctor may have found more of the cause of my problem. Turns out one of
my bloodpressure meds has been giving me chronic pancreatitus. They
changed out my meds stopped the vommitting and sent me home. So far no
nausia etc so let's pray that this is the fix and there won't be any
more problems.
So a while back i decided to go off the majority of the meds i've been
on excluding the important stuff like bp/stomach meds. I decided to try
herbal medicine instead and this seems to be farely successful. My pain
levels are much much lower thanks to the devils claw and other things.
Not so tired durring the day and a lot more flexible and functional.
I'm incredibley glad about this. I'm sleeping better at night, in less
pain, more flexible and over all more healthy. Hopefully with time i can
lose the remaining weight that i need to.
Thursday, August 25, 2011
does anyone understand the stupidity of the government sometimes?
I'm furious. Now, i have to pray that seeing eye will come to florida to train me with a dog which they may not. Not only that, but this will make getting a dog take even longer because either A, a trainer has to come out and work with me here, or B, it means i basically have to put getting my dog on hold till i can get all of this paperwork in order. I want to scream, I'm stuck paying for something that the damn government has decided is no longer useful. Oh sure i have a useful birth certificate, they've accepted it for years, but, it's not certified, and apparrently in order to get an id card, you have to have certified paperwork. Ok getting that would have been easy, but the courts had to go and screw things up even more by not filing the adoption paperwork. This means we not only have to do it, but it puts everything behind schedule by anywhere from 1 to 2 months.
The thing that's got me so upset about it all is i can't fight it, i just have to bite my tongue and pay for someone else's fuck up.
Oh well. I'll deal, but i strongly dislike it.
If this had been say 10 years ago, i could have gone into the DMV, gotten a new id with my birth certificate and adoption papers like i've done for years, but now all of this is not good enough. They say it's to "protect american citizens"""""" or what ever the BS they call it is, but as far as i'm concerned all they're doing is hurting the american citizens, because if the courts or lawyers haven't done their jobs, the people who are well, for lack of better wording are victims of the courts mistakes we have to pay out the ass for them.
horrible last couple of days
Chris was wonderful, he stayed with me as much as he could and did his best to help me. The hospital trip this time was another story all together. The doctors did everything they could not to admit me even going as far as still sending me home still vommitting. The end result was that we came home for a couple hours sunday night and ended up gong back at 6am sunday morning. They tried saying there was nothing wrong with me and sending me home again, but we refused to go and they finally admitted me. The poor care continued. When we got to our room the staff was nearly hostile. Actually i should correct that the day nurse i had monday and tuesday was nice, but the night nurse we had and yesterday's nurse were totally unhelpful.
They were sitting out at the desk one time just chatting away and totally ignoring my calls for help, finally i said screw them i couldn't hold it any more and unhooked myself and went to the bathroom. Still didn't make it to the toilet and that totally pissed me off. If they had come in the first couple times i begged for help we wouldn't have had that problem. There were similar reoccurrences like that but different situations.
I'm furious over the whole experience. That hospital has never been that rude or inconsiderate before but this time they were. It wasn't just the night staff and the nurse i had yesterday either but also the doctors at the ER. The hospitalists weren't so bad they were at least nice
What i want to know is why. Is it because i'm a medicade patient and the government is looking for ways to cut medicade? Is it because my husband and i are blind and they think they can get away with poor treatment? I'd bet you that if i'd have had a sited person there it may not have gone the way it did i really don't know though. Either way i found the whole thing disturbing.
We got home last night though and i'm more then glad to be out of the hospital. I go back on the 29th to get my paceemaker adjusted though so we'll see what happens. chances are they'll up the settings on the pacemaker to compensate for my stomach being stupid.
I heard of this really neat android app the other day called high q mp3 recorder. I wasn't going to get it origionall till i listened to a sound file that someone from the eyes-free google group had uploaded. The sound is incredible.lots of high quality sound. I might use this when i go to get my dog. Record the walking and training sessions and that way others can hear some of what goes on while i'm in training.
Friday, August 19, 2011
back to the seeing eye for round 2
Now though the waiting really begins.I was told that it looks like late fall to mid winter is when i'll be going back into class but a lot depends on just when they get a dog for me. I got the impression that the only thing we're waiting for now is a dog for me.
Not quite sure how i feel about spending 3 weeks in NJ in the middle of the winter. On one hand it's going to be a blast. I've not seen snow since 1991 or so, so that part will be fun. On the other hand though it's gonna be cold, real cold. At least if i remember correctly, there's some coffee shops along those routes, guess i'll be drinking lots of coffee along the way....Wonder how many of those are starbucks.
I'm starting to wonder right about now what kind of dog i'll get. Another shephard that's bouncey and ready to work like savannah? A happy bouncey golden that's ready to work and play? Could be any really. TSE knows i want a shephard and that's certainly what i hope i get, however i also know that they know what's best and they'll do their best to match me with a dog that will work best for my current situation.
It's kind of funny though, when the trainer came down to re-evaluate me for a dog i wasn't overly active but with chris here that's changing again, i certainly hope that what ever kind of dog i get, it's going to be one that's ready to adapt to changes in life like savannah was. That's one trait i hope my new dog has as well.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
change in plans!
leave the state of florida because of the pacemaker, well i can leave to
travel but not to actually move.
We were looking forward to moving but seems we can't now.
Friday, August 12, 2011
thoughts on android and accessibility
my android, on the other...Every phone maker puts their garbage on it
such as htc sense ui or samsung touchwiz and so on. Companies fail to
realize that things like htc sense make it almost impossible for a blind
person to use it with out rooting it and voiding the warantee.
With the samsung touchwiz it causes a couple problems such as talkback
randomly crashing on my phone. I've not had to root mine yet but i've
definitly thought about it, I'd rather it have a basic stock rom rather
then fighting repeatedly with stupid maker garbage.
My poor husband on the other hand has an htc evo shift. I love it or at
least i love it for the fact that it's running android 2.3 where as i'm
only running 2.2.
All in all i'm impressed by google working to make android accessible.
Many blind users say that android isn't really ready for accessibility
yet, they say that it needs to be more advanced.
My thought is that a lot of these blind users also deal with an iphone
and they expect all other phones to just work like the iphone. That in
itself is wrong. You can't expect google to live up to apple. Google has
their own way of doing accessibility, and long as it works, i'm happy
with that.
we're moving!
situation along with ways to get out on our own. I love my parents to
death, but chris and i really want time to ourselves, and want to do
things that generally involve alone time.
Anyway, things magicly started falling into place this month. We got the
surgion paid so that's one less thing to deal with. Next month we're
getting the papers i need to get an id in order to fly to go get my dog.
Next montth we'll actually be able to save money not end up spending it.
Chris talked to his father yesterday, I'm not fully sure what happened
in this conversation, but the end result is that We're moving to
oklahoma probably mid to late october. We'll be living in an apartment
across the street from his father. It's a pretty nice sized apartment,
hardwood floors and tial in the bathroom. It's a garage apartment and
the washer and dryer are in the garage so we can use that to. We'll have
to pay utilities, but we'll be out on our own and i'm so so excited
about it.
I've already begun making preperations for moving. Making plans to pack,
and get a good amount of our stuff shipped up to oklahoma ahead of us.
Going to try and have all the boxes in the garage sent down as well as
chris's empty boxes repacked of course that are in the room across from
ours.
This seems to be god's plan for usbut it's not going to be easy at all.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Fwd: yay!
Subject: yay!
Date: Tue, 09 Aug 2011 12:16:30 -0500
From: Deedra Waters <deedra@the-brannons.com>
To: seeingeye-l@list.web.net
Looks like they are just waiting for a dog to match me with! So pauline
said some time between late fall and winter is when i'll be going into
class!
I'm so excited! I'm extremely glad now that i've started walking and
swimming. I talked to my chiropractor this morrning and he said that the
swimming will counter a lot of the fibromyalgia and help force the
mussles in my back and shoulders to rebuild some of their strength.
This is almost perfect timing for me. I got married, my husband and i
have had time to build on our relationship, the worst of my medical
problems are over and my body is slowly working it's way back into being
able to handle and sometimes lift a large dog again.
I miss savannah, I miss playing with her and trying to cuddle with a
hyper girl. I'm over the major sadness at letting her go and trying to
get used to the change. Now, i'm ready to rebuild on that and let things
work out.
Thank god for all of this. It truely feels like things are starting to
move forward.
Monday, August 8, 2011
prepping for guide dog school
dog. We still need to get the proper forms etc so i can get the required
documents to fly. We can't do any of that till next month. Should have
it all complete by october. In the mean time though we're doing a lot of
swimming and just started walking again so that i can help build up stamina.
The walking has been fun. Last night we walked around the neighborhood,
and took our phones with us in case we got lost. We then used the gps's
to try and get ourselves back home. We actually did very well. Once i
grasp the consept of figuring out how i know wether i'm walking
north/south/east/west it will be easier....Think there's a compus so i
can actually figure things out we'll see.
long overdo update
the intention of keeping a regular blog, but i also at one point wanted
to go back to wordpress. However the wordpress site is highly
inaccessible, and extremely annoying, and that's with a real browser.
When i first started this blog i had intended to get back involved with
gentoo, but i got very sick very quickly. Well, i was sick then, but my
condition deteriated to where i was in and out of the hospital
repeatedly. I had surgery on the 25th of april to install a pacemaker in
my stomach and since then, i've been incredibley more stable. The side
effect of the surgery though was that i dropped out of getting involved
with gentoo because i was too sick to do much, and got busy.
I also got married on june 4th. My husband came down here on may 31st
and we were married june 4th.
I have to say honestly that i love being married. Chris and i make a
great team, we're very close and we get along incredibley well.
Marriage has presented it's own set of challenges. I've been alone for
so long that it takes a while to get used to having someone in your life
and everyday activities. It's been easy to get used to that. I love
cooking for chris. We get together in the kitchen and make these giant
1-pot meals. This is lots of fun.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
fun stuff
In other news, I've gotten back into doing stuff for gentoo. I must enjoy torture, because this makes the third time i've gotten involved with gentoo. I think though they'd probably rather i get retired etc then work my way back rather then just going inactive for huge chunks of time.
I've also gotten involved with android type stuff. Most of what i've been doing right now is testing apps and so on. I think android is a bit harder to get involved with because google keeps a tight lid on things in development, but i'm trying. I enjoy the open source aspect of android, so it makes for a lot of fun as well even if it is hard to get involved with.
I'll probably post more here then on facebook, i find blogs a bit more fun then facebook.